其实我一直都很自责.....

现在的我好像特别敏感..
好容易沮丧..

我也不想的.

its coming to 1.5 months since im here. think i've gotten used to whatever i need to. n began to realise how i take singapore for granted because we pretty much have everything there. malls dun close at 5, late night shopping doesnt end at 9 (that's our normal closing hour), public transport is regular regardless of which day it is (no waiting of buses for 1 hr on sundays n 1/2 hr on saturdays), trains come on time, we have starbucks, we have a lot of street lights, we have exotic food. but then again, i like how the people here dun use their horns like we do on the road. i believe i only heard 2 horns since i've been here. n drivers just slow down n let u pass even when u're jaywalking (this happens almost 9 out of 10 times). that's a really nice gesture. i like how people just give way unlike how we have to fight for ours. people here usually just greet u with smiles n go "how're u going?" even if they dunno your name (especially when u enter a shop). i use to just smile back n keep my mouth shut. that's kinda impolite. but now i usually greet them back. 

its easy to get bored here. so i've developed an interest in cooking. i should be able to cook like a pro after completing my 2 years of study. presentation doesn't play a part in my cooking cuz i just simply dun care. sometimes i cook like crap but i'll still force it down my throat n either stop cooking that dish or improve it somewhere. so now let me present to u. Chef Ho. 

  
chicken chop. 

chicken with dong fen.

sushi.

    
steak with chicken. 

steak with spaghetti. (I finally can make medium steak after 3 tries)

minced beef wantons.

prata & chicken curry. 

omg i missed prata n curry so much. i was enjoying this meal so so so much.

autumn's coming. yeah :)

It's been 2 weeks. I'm still in the process of adapting to my new life in Perth, a temporary home.

To all you people out there who are worried about me. I just wanted to tell you guys that I'm gonna be alright. I can tidy my bed, wash and iron my clothes, vacuum the floor, clean my room, cook for myself, etc. Don't worry, I'm not going to die here without my maid.

Now let's tour my apartment.

The living room.

The kitchen.

The hallway to our rooms. Mine is the first on the right.

Welcome to my room.

This is my bed n my beautiful polariod wall.

My still-not-very-messy-yet table.

this is what i see everyday, out of my window.

Summer is so god damn hot its almost 40 degrees out there; bout 37-38 everyday. I just can't understand why these people can lie under that burning environment to tan themselves. I feel pain when I'm out, like my skin is on fire or something. This heat is killing me. My fan is always turned on at the highest speed and I've been sleeping without clothes on for close to a week. I'm still sweating and there is not even one single day of undisturbed sleep since the day I came. ITS SO HOT. I can't wait for summer to end, seriously.

I guess god or whoever it is, you know who you are (since I don't really have a religion) has been really nice to me. One of my biggest fears was room mates. Turns out, I'm a lucky girl :) I've got nice roomies. 4 girls + 1 guy in the whole apartment.

That's Rose on the left, she's from New Zealand and Cherish, from Colorado, USA on the right.

In the centre, Rizka from Indonesia and on the extreme right, Janitra from Indonesia.
On the extreme left is our friend Ted, he's from Myanmar. A really nice and kind guy.

Fate brought the 5 of us together. We're all lucky people :)

One of the things I missed the most is food. And I have to say, I'm really sick of sausages. All these parties and barbecues I went, are filled with them. That's like the only thing they barbecue. Went to some asian supermarkets yesterday and guess what. I FOUND GREEN TEA. I'm so touched. It's expensive but well, what is not. I had a close to SGD$13 Mee Goreng which doesn't taste like Mee Goreng and a SGD$20 laksa which is quite decent. It's insane, I know. I'm still trying to get used to all this crazy prices. A bottle of 600ml sprite/coke costs SGD$4 in the supermarket. What the hell? When I first saw it, I thought there was something wrong with the tags on the shelves. I was wrong. I'm just gonna ignore the prices as time goes on, or I'll have to live on boiled tap water.

To all you people out there who wants to send me stuff, I think you can't (esp. food). But I do have a mailing address if you want to send me snail mails. I'll just have to go check the pigeon hole at the reception. 2 Bradford St, Mt Lawley, ECU Student Village Building A1, 142-01, Western Australia 6050.

I feel contented at the smallest of things cuz its sad enough to live alone here without all you people. Sometimes I find myself sitting alone in the room at night, looking at the computer with tears rolling down my cheeks, its pathetic. I'll never forget the first night.

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛
想见不能见最痛

Funny, its so easy to cry these days. Being strong is being strong. Missing people is missing people. They're 2 different things. If being strong means I can't miss you people then I'll just be a weakling. I'm strong and I miss you guys. That's that and I'm not going to stop missing you.

i allowed myself into this..
have to bear the consequences..

越是在乎.. 越是难受..

Time is running out.. if u didn't realise..

In the midst of packing my stuff.. in the middle of the night..

the thought of leaving and empty promises upsets me..

not going to deny that I teared..